(Minghui.org) We are Dafa disciples during the Fa-rectification period, and our bodies have long been replaced by high-energy matter. How can we get sick? If old forces dare to interfere with us, there must be loopholes on our part. The false impression of sickness is targeting our human hearts. The following is a story of mine regarding this issue.
Two years ago, my right lower gum began to hurt, and the pain came and went. At first, I didn’t pay much attention to it.
Last spring, when the results of the physical examination for all employees organized by my workplace came out, one of the cancer antigen values was frighteningly high, many times the normal value. I didn’t take it seriously after reading it. Later, the toothache became more frequent and the pain lasted longer.
One night I was sitting on the couch and I saw a dark being fall from the sky. I have been bold since I was a child and have never been afraid of anything. The moment the huge black shadow hit the ground, fear suddenly struck me, and all the hairs on my body stood up. This kind of horror was something I had never experienced before.
I calmed down quickly and sent righteous thoughts: eliminate! It was immediately gone. But I did not keep sending forth righteous thoughts, as I thought it was eliminated.
I suspected this dark being was the Grim Reaper, out to kill me. I am a Dafa disciple, I have Master and Dafa to safeguard me. I thought the matter was over and I didn't expect that this was just the beginning of the ordeal.
Shortly after that, one day before I entered my home, I heard a sinister voice behind me say: kill her! I turned my head and said disdainfully: If you dare! But the interference kept on, I often saw horrible sights while sending forth righteous thoughts, and even saw people pay homage to my soul! I thought: perform as you wish, I will not be affected--what will you do then? Dafa disciples cultivate within the Fa, and I will be rectified by the Fa only.
Since then my teeth have been in severe pain from time to time, and it's like there's a switch on my teeth, and when it hurts, it feels like there's a blender in my teeth, stirring up and down. When the pain hit me, I could not sleep nor eat, and improper thoughts cropped up, such as: pull the teeth, use a pain killer...I was able to negate the thought right away: I did not have an illness, it was a false impression.
Why did I keep having a toothache? There was karma, but the fundamental cause was my attachment, I began searching for my shortcomings.
Among ordinary people, I tend to talk more and react quickly. I often complain, like an angry youth, to my colleagues about various social injustices. I can be sharp-tongued and do not cultivate my speech like a cultivator should.
My pain eased up for a few days, but then returned. I looked within some more. What was I missing? I recalled those incidents when I did not cultivate my speech, I found my attachment to showing off, a strong sense of validating myself, the mentality of competitiveness, resentment, jealousy, and more.
The pain still lasted for about six months, with swelling. When the swelling subsided, I touched it, it was a large, hard tumor, and even caused a gap between two teeth. A fellow practitioner reminded me that I should keep digging into my attachments that are related to my teeth.
What else did I miss? Teeth relate to speech as well as eating, could that be it?! I enjoy food too much! I love food, cooking, frying, grilling, and stewing. I enjoyed the process of cooking so much that even when I was meditating, my mind would wander to cooking: what I should cook first, next, last, what color it would be, how tasty it could be...how did I never think of it in the past, such strong attachments! I often thought it was a trivial matter, that I would cultivate it away in the process of my cultivation. But in cultivation, nothing is a trivial matter!
I touched the tumor, and believed that it was time for it to be disintegrated now. Even though it was still painful, I believed that the root was pulled, and the remaining black qi needed to be expelled. Even when a Dafa disciple has attachments, one has to cultivate them away while doing the three things well, the old forces are not allowed to interfere, nor persecute. I negated the old forces’ arrangement and would follow Master only. I should do whatever I should do as a Dafa disciple.
After about six months, I realized that the tumor was completely gone! I forgot when the pain disappeared, but my teeth were perfectly fine with no gap between them! Thank you, Master, for your saving grace!
I never thought it could be a disease, nor a tumor, even when others told me it might be gum cancer. I never associated disease with my pain. Looking back when the cancer antigen was so high with such excruciating pain, if I acknowledged it back then, I would truly have cancer and ended up like what I saw through the celestial vision: someone would pay homage to my soul.
Master warned us:
“Each of your attachments could cause your cultivation to fail. Each of your attachments could result in physical issues, and lead your once-firm faith in Dafa to waver.” (Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference, Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XIII)
Because of one’s attachments, one receives false impressions. The tumors, the crushed bones, the high fevers, they all stem from our minds, and are illusions targeting our hearts.
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