(Minghui.org) Greetings, revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I am a 66-year-old female practitioner, and I live in a rural area. After I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, I no longer felt competitive, and I struggled with human emotions and desires. Instead, I became a rational, clear-headed, and morally upright practitioner.
I can’t imagine how much compassionate great Master sacrificed for me, bearing so much karma and enduring unimaginable hardship! I have no way to repay Master’s boundless grace except by doing the three things well and living up to the title of Falun Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period.
Studying the Teachings Well and Letting Go of Resentment
Feelings of resentment, hatred, competitiveness, jealousy, and the unwillingness to be criticized were deeply rooted in me since childhood.
My early years were full of hardship. My father passed away when I was three, and my mother struggled to raise three children in poverty. My grandparents discriminated against her, often quarreling with her and even beating her. I grew up filled with fear and resentment, and I developed a deep hatred toward my grandparents’ family that lasted for many years.
My husband and I respected each other, and we raised two sons. We were a happy, harmonious family admired by our neighbors.
In the fall of 1998, I came across the precious book Zhuan Falun and I began practicing Falun Dafa. My family life became even more peaceful, harmonious and joyful.
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began its brutal persecution of Falun Dafa. Lies flooded the country, deceiving countless people. Despite great pressure, five of us practitioners in the village continued studying the Fa (teachings) together, and we told people the truth about Dafa. Because of this, I was often harassed by police, and my family suffered and was pressured as well.
My husband, afraid of the CCP, couldn’t accept my practice. He often lost his temper, shouted at me, and once even hit me. Because I hadn’t studied the Fa deeply, I argued back. We often had heated arguments over trivial matters.
Once, after an argument, we went to my mother-in-law’s home. Hearing both of us claim that we were right, she said to me, “You can’t even let go of such a small thing?”
Her words struck me like lightning. She’s illiterate, how could she say something so meaningful? I realized Master was enlightening me through her. Because my attachments were too strong, I failed to improve, and my resentment towards my husband deepened.
Whenever we quarreled, my husband would say, “I’m helping you.” But because of my deeply ingrained resentment, I didn’t enlighten. I would snap back, “I don’t need your help. I have the Fa and Master to guide me; I don’t need you.”
This went on for more than ten years.
One time, while studying the Fa, I came across a passage where Master said,
“If we encounter these problems, we should not compete and fight like others. If you do what that person did, aren’t you an ordinary person? Not only should you not compete and fight like him, but you should also not resent that person in your heart. Really, you should not hate that person. If you hate that person, aren’t you upset? You have not followed forbearance. We practice Zhen-Shan-Ren, and you would have even less compassion to speak of. So you should not be like him or become really upset with him, despite his putting you in this awful situation where you cannot even raise your head. Instead of being angry with him, you should thank him in your heart and thank him sincerely.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master’s words awakened me, and I realized that as a practitioner, I should not handle conflicts the same way ordinary people do. Reflecting on my behavior, I saw how poor it was—not only did I fail to thank my husband, but I even treated him as an enemy. I was far from being a cultivator.
I corrected myself and said, “Master, I was wrong. I don’t want this hatred, this competitive mindset, or jealousy. I must eliminate these negative attachments. Please help me, Master.”
As soon as I said this, I felt a thick, sticky substance detach itself and dissolve from my body. I felt incredibly light and clear-headed, a state I had never experienced before. It was truly wonderful. Master saw that I had the desire to improve and helped me remove this negative substance. I changed my mindset. I’m deeply grateful to Master!
To fully assimilate into the Fa, besides participating in group study three times a week, I also studied the Fa extensively on my own. In 2011, after I read other practitioners’ cultivation experience sharing articles on Minghui.org of how they memorized the Fa, I also began memorizing Zhuan Falun.
Memorizing the Fa was truly a process of tempering the heart. I struggled with fear of the difficulty and interference from various thoughts that hindered my efforts to focus, but I made up my mind that no matter how difficult it was, I would persist. After one year, I finally finished memorizing Zhuan Falun once and I gained many insights.
One evening, I dreamed that Zhuan Falun opened before me, and its pages glowed with a gold light. The first half lay before me, while the second half formed golden steps, with one step after another extending infinitely into the vast universe. The golden staircase was truly magnificent and sacred!
When I woke up, I was deeply moved by the magnificent scene in my dream. I knew it was Master’s encouragement, and it strengthened my confidence in memorizing the Fa. My pace is slow. I memorized the Fa 14 times in 14 years. But I truly enjoy memorizing the Fa, and I will continue to do so.
In September 2024, I began transcribing Zhuan Falun. My xinxing unknowingly improved through memorizing and transcribing the Fa. I learned to measure everything by the Fa, to catch and dissolve human thoughts as soon as they arise, and to correct myself in time. I feel that every moment is a process of cultivation, and studying the Fa more is truly wonderful.
Through large amounts of Fa study, memorization, and transcription, I corrected my words and actions. My xinxing improved, my karma was eliminated, and my environment changed. My husband no longer loses his temper and even helps with housework, cooks, washes dishes, and reminds me when it’s time to send forth righteous thoughts.
Although my husband does not directly assist with clarifying the truth about the persecution to people, he takes care of most of the household chores, allowing me time for Dafa projects. He accompanied me throughout my cultivation journey, creating many difficulties for me so that I could eliminate a lot of karma. This truly is a great blessing.
Striving Forward Diligently
After the persecution began, I coordinated with fellow practitioners to distribute truth-clarification materials. I used my phone to directly call people to clarify the truth and encourage them to do the three withdrawals (from the CCP, the Youth League, and the Young Pioneers), and later I also spoke to people face to face. In cooperating with fellow practitioners, we truly helped each other. Not only did we help Master save many people, but we also eliminated many attachments, which helped us grow more mature and stable in our cultivation. Our determination to practice Falun Dafa became stronger, and we experienced a profound transformation. Below are a few small stories while we clarified the truth.
1. The sacredness of saving people and Master’s encouragement
I went with an elderly practitioner couple to a large market and brought my two-year-old grandson. I talked with people to clarify the truth, while the elderly couple helped take care of my grandson.
I saw two women standing at the intersection near the market. I greeted them warmly and asked if they had heard of the three withdrawals. I then reminded them of the crimes committed by the CCP against the Chinese people, and how heaven would destroy it, and that only by withdrawing from the Party and its organizations could they ensure their safety. I also explained what Falun Dafa is, and the truth of the persecution. They all agreed to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations, and they happily accepted the truth materials I gave them before they headed to the market.
As more and more people gathered at the market, I thought that if I helped many to withdraw, it would be hard to remember everyone’s names! The elderly practitioner who came with me noticed this and said, “Don’t worry, I’ll remember their names. You just focus on talking to them.” I saw her husband holding my grandson, standing outside the crowd, and watching me. I immediately felt at ease, and with more confidence, I began speaking loudly to the crowd, explaining the goodness of Dafa, exposing the evil of the CCP, and telling people that they needed to quit the CCP to ensure their safety. The people who listened were very receptive, many of them agreed to withdraw, and most asked for materials.
After I finished talking, the crowd dispersed. A man in his sixties came to me. Having listened to the truth and quit the CCP, he took the truth-clarification CD from me with both hands, carefully placed it in his pocket, and bowed to me repeatedly, saying, “Thank you! Thank you!” I was deeply moved by his sincere gesture and replied, “Don’t thank me. You should thank Master Li, the founder of Falun Dafa. It is my Master who instructed me to help save you.” He sincerely bowed again, saying, “Thank you, Falun Dafa’s Master! Thank you, Falun Dafa’s Master!”
Seeing the gratitude on the man’s face after he understood the truth, my emotions overwhelmed me, and tears of gratitude streamed down my face. At that moment, Master showed me a magnificent, sacred scene: I felt my body rise high above, beyond the earth, standing in the vast universe. It was incredibly sacred, so grand and awe-inspiring. In my mind, I said, “Master, I will follow your words, save more people, and live up to the expectations of sentient beings who are waiting for salvation. I will not disappoint your compassionate salvation!”
2. A miraculous moment
In the spring of 2000, after extensive Fa study and sharing, the five practitioners in our village all realized that we should distribute truth materials on a large scale to help more people understand the truth. This is our responsibility as Falun Dafa practitioners.
We arranged to have two practitioners per group, with one riding a motorcycle to transport the other, and spread out from our village to the surrounding areas, making sure to reach every village.
There is a large river dividing the two provinces in our area, and the bridge across the river is an important passage. While distributing materials, we also put up truth clarification posters so that people passing by could read them.
Another practitioner and I went to another area along the river to distribute materials. We noticed that the electric poles on both sides of the bridge were tall and clearly visible, and the bridge was constantly busy with traffic day and night. It seemed the perfect location to put up truth clarification posters. After we finished distributing the materials, as we headed home, we looked for the best spots to put the posters.
When we reached the last poster, I planned to paste it on a pole at the beginning of the bridge. Seeing that the traffic was heavy and continuous, I began to worry about how to do it safely. I quietly asked Master: “Master, please help me. I need to paste this poster here.” As soon as I reached the pole, I got off the motorcycle and walked directly towards it.
When I looked back to glance at the bridge, miraculously, the bridge, which had been full of traffic just moments before, was completely empty! I quickly pasted up the poster. The moment I got back on the motorcycle, the traffic reappeared and flowed continuously once again. It was truly a miracle! I repeatedly thanked Master in my heart. Master is always by our side, protecting us.
3. Making truth materials for fellow practitioners
The truth-clarification materials in our area had to be brought from a distant location by a coordinator. This was very inconvenient. In 2018, I decided to start making the materials myself. I had an Epson 805 printer, which was slow and only good for printing truth-clarification notes on money. I told our coordinator, “I can make the materials, but I need a faster printer.” The coordinator agreed.
A few days later, I had a clear dream: I was walking in the yard when I looked up at the sky. There, hanging between the blue sky and white clouds, was a huge Falun (law wheel), shining down over my house. The next day, the coordinator brought me a much faster Epson 5210 printer. This printer could print materials quickly, which greatly helped the practitioners in my area. Sometimes practitioners from other Fa-study groups also come to me for materials.
While making the materials, I prioritized studying the Fa. Whenever I was too busy, I learned to say no to additional requests. My days were filled with studying the Fa, sending righteous thoughts, and making materials, but I always stayed calm and focused. I knew that all of this was arranged by Master’s compassion, helping me improve, and fulfilling the sacred vows I made in ancient times.
I am deeply grateful to Master!
(Selected submission for the 22nd China Fa Conference on Minghui.org)
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